Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Mr. Stetson

well looky look at who was in town tonight!




starr and i went over to city t.v. to see if we could catch a glimpse of the matthew and ended up running into rhonda who works there. we went in with her to see if we could get wrist bands to get in on the action up close and personal....we couldn't. we did however stand in the studio for a bit watching. we then headed outside where he stood in the giant window, greeted fans, and fell in love with starr. he wasn't really shaking hands, just signing autographs, but he looked over at starr (who reached out her arm) and grabbed onto it and just held it for a bit looking at her. not knowing what to do starr let out "i like you" which we think went unheard much to starr's relief.

so that was the evening. monday night has duran duran in the environment, we might just have to try for wristbands for that one.....i love you john taylor!

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

one of those email thingies

1. First Name: Amanda
2. Were you named after anyone? i don't think so
3 Do you wish on stars? i sure do!
4. When did you last cry? today
5. Do you like your handwriting? it's alright, there's room for
6. What is your favorite lunch meat? you lost me with "lunch meat"
7. What is your birth date? March 2nd 1977
8. What is your most embarrassing moment? probably involves me laughing so
hard i peed my pants...seriously.
9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? yeah, Amanda
10. Are you a daredevil? how many drinks have i had?
11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? yup...Oops.
12. Do looks matter? at first i guess, first impression and all that jazz.
13. How do you release anger? i cry. sometimes i just have to yell really
14. Where is your second home? my parents house.
15. Do you trust others easily? yes, far to easily.
16. What was your favorite toy as a child? i was really into the playdoh
barber shop.
17. What class in high school do you think was totally useless? math, that
shit is totally not my style.
18. Do you have a journal? i do, i have 2. one online & one that requires
a pen.
19. Do you use sarcasm a lot? does a bear shit in the woods?
20. What are your nicknames? Manda, Manzy, my hubby used to call me tits
22. Would you bungee jump? i'm afraid i would not bungee jump, no.
24. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no, i just kick em'
25. Do you think that you are strong?, mentally....i've
discovered i am more so than i thought.
26. Favorite Ice cream flavor? i don't like ice cream, probably the only
person in the world too.
27. Shoe Size? 8 1/2 - 9
28. Red/Pink? regarding what? coz if it's icing on a gingerbread cookie i'd
have to say pink, red has a bad bitter taste.
29. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? overly
emotional....and my left boob is bigger than my right.
30. Who do you miss most? the damian i fell in love with & married
31. Do you want everyone you send this to to send it back? shit yeah! you
hear that you buggers, send it back! except you kate, i got yours.
32. What color pants and shoes/or socks are you wearing? blue jeans and
red/pink/tan/beige/grey striped socks.
33. What are you listening to right now? online radio station
34. Last thing you ate? mozzarella cheese stick, the kind you can pull
apart and play with, not the deep fried kind.
35. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? periwinkle.
36. What is the weather like right now? 12 degrees and damn sweet!
37. Last person you talked to on the phone? my BFF Starr
38. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? smile
39. Do you like the person who sent this to you? damn straight i do, she's
the most kick ass sister anyone could ask for!!!
40. Favorite Drink? Non-alcoholic: water with lemon Alcoholic: red wine,
straight up expensive red wine too.
41. Favorite Sport? yeah, i'm not overly sporty when it comes to sports.
42. Hair color? brunette.
44. Do you wear contacts? No.
45. Favorite Food? hard one, i adore the veggie puff pastry pie my mom
46. Last Movie You Watched? The Incredibles.
47. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? happy endings.
48. Summer or Winter? winter......i like to be cozy.
49. Hugs or Kisses? both, i have to have both.
50. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? brownies.
51. Who Is Most Likely To Respond? Starr.
52. Who Is Least Likely To Respond? Kate (she already did this thing).
53. Living Arrangements. tender subject, next question please.
54. What Books Are You Reading? 'Jim Giraffe' & 'The Official Drivers
Handbook' (28 and finally getting my license)
55. What's On Your Mouse Pad? no mousepad to speak of.
56. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? CSI, Manhunt (oh my god, i totally
did and my boy Rob should have won, he's adorable. i was outraged i tell
57. Favorite Smells? rain, mom's cooking, christmas trees, damian.
58. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Beatles all the fucking way!
59. Do you believe in Evolution or Creation? Evolution.
60. What's the furthest you've been from home? Australia.
61. Any Tattoos? yeah, but it's in the process of being removed.

Friday, March 18, 2005

inspirational too

i was reading sabrina's newest book (again) tonight and came across things she had written that struck true with me. things i could take to my own heart and really think about. not that this has never happened before, it's why i love her books so much, but for some reason they hit harder this time. on one page she discusses the things she is carrying and the one that made my eyes well up was:

"i carry the dream of you before i knew you"

it makes me cry now, just typing it out. that dream was so pure, nothing went wrong in that dream. he existed as perfection, true love, someone to hold and trust, someone true.

i sometimes hate the fact that i'm a romantic at heart because i will always be let down. i think up these grand things in my head yet i know they will never happen. grand doesn't necessarily mean big to me, huge gestures. grand could be a plastic ring out of a gumball machine or a keychain with my name on it. or grand could be saying you're sorry, admitting you messed up.

another thought in her book was:

"i know it must all be a me space and my own time again, after so long. time to get some perspective, look at my own life with room around the edges."

i do believe that everything happens for a reason, therefore what i'm going through has got to be a window or door to something greater. i suppose i'm an optimist too otherwise i would have said that window or door could be leading me to more unhappiness. we shall see.

thirdly, sabrina quoted joseph campbell and this is a quote i have got to take to heart, really think about:

"we must be willing to get rid of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." - jopseph campbell

why is it that pain is what makes us grow, like happiness puts blinders on us?


i came across this quote on keri's journal and i just had to put it up on mine.

"When you are up against a wall, be still and put down roots like a tree, until clarity comes from deeper sources, to see over the wall." --Carl Jung

Sunday, March 13, 2005

letting the wine talk

...hold on, i need a third glass...............

okay, here we go. i'm sure i've said it before but i wish my life could always feel like a glass of red wine. true, i'm currently on my third and the feeling of 3 is a lot closer to drunk but, one glass seems to feel like red optimism. after one glass i'm still very aware of what's going on and there's no way i'd go home with a strange guy who claims he's related to _____________ (insert gorgeous actor's name here). one glass just makes me feel good, makes me feel positive about the bullshit going on in my life right now (please refrain from suggesting a great AA group you know about).

the song 'the blowers daughter' by damian rice (from the movie 'closer') has me in a state of "i would fuckin' KILL for someone to write those lyrics ("I can't keep my eyes off of you") about me.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

closer than you know

last night a whole crowd of us went to the bloor cinema for a double feature. the first movie was 'in good company' which was pretty good and the second movie, which was fantastic, was 'closer'.

i don't think i've ever seen a movie that has hit so close to home. i've been wanting to see it for so long but couldn't bring myself to watch it due to the subject matter. i'm so glad i finally saw it, it made me think AND it made me want to sleep with natalie portman! definitely a DVD i'm going to buy.

Thursday, March 10, 2005

speedo glory

man, i'm so's brilliant! i ran a bath, lit some candles, poured a glass of wine (ok, second glass of wine), then cranked the new toy where i was taken away by zero 7's 'destiny'.

now i sit here, by candlelight again, chatting with my fave gal listening to some downtempo on live365. this unemployment thing isn't so bad (yet). i can stay up later and sleep in (not that i really like to sleep in too late anyway). tomorrow kate is taking the day off and we're going to hang out doing girl stuff. we're going to steal the above mentioned gal from work for lunch, maybe shop for interview clothes (for me) and other sexier things, maybe get our eyebrows done....there's pain in beauty. who knows where the day will take us, i just wish starr had the day off too.

before i go i have to share the most studly thing i've ever encountered. it would be terribly selfish of me to have it all for myself, so may i present an alluring gift from the heavens.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

new toy

my parents gave me one of these for my birthday and i'm loving it! the only problem i'm have is finding 1000 songs to put on it. kate & kevin gave me the gift of my first 25 songs off of itunes so i have a lot of work ahead of me, picking the best 25 songs.

if you know of any songs i should definitely check out, leave me a comment.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

smellin' like lopez

it has bling

i think you all know where this is going. yes, i recently purchased a bottle of JLo's perfume "Glow". i'm not even a perfume wearer, i'm more of an oils kind of girl. i love the smell of it though, starr's friend dianne wears it and it reminds me so much of an oil i bought in Salem, MA. a few years ago (and have since lost).

i dropped a good chunk of cash down for that 50ml bottle of smell but i don't care. kate & kevin urged me to do it as we were drowning in clouds of yves st. laurent, jean paul gaultier, chanel, etc. (is there anything worse than the perfume section of a department store?) they said "treat yourself, your birthday is on wednesday." so i did, i can wear it when i wear my JLo bra. that's right, i own JLo knickers too. looks like i'm all about the lopez, my secret is out. i find myself liking this and okay, i could see myself shakin' it to her new song (the title eludes me but it's the one where she plays everyone in the video).

what do you suppose it means? am i in fact an in the closet JLo fan? nah, i just happened to come across a red bra i liked and it just happened to be JLo brand. i just happened to like the smell of a perfume someone was wearing and it happened to be JLo brand. i just happened to find myself moving when i heard a song on the radio and it just happened to be JLo brand.

so tomorrow is my 28th birthday and i'm unemployed. in an odd way it's a lot better than being in that office for another b-day. last year i said to myself "you're 27 today and you are still here. what are you doing?" now i'm out and to celebrate the day of my birth i'm going to a doctors appointment. hoorah, what a grand way to do it. maybe i'll take a limo there!