Wednesday, March 31, 2004

that's it! i can't wait any longer. i've been wanting to see 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' since the first preview flashed my eyes but, i have yet to see it.

damian has been super busy with his new job and doesn't get home until quite late (the 1 1/2 hour commute doesn't help) & during the weekend he's busy working on a freelance job for an architect. he wants to see the film too so he told starr and i to wait for him. i can't wait any longer, i'm going to have to go without him! i don't want to hear anything more than what i already know about it. i know that it's going to be one of those films that excites me visually, one that reinforces my love of film and makes me kick myself for not getting into it as a career.

in highschool i thought i wanted to be an actor, i did plays & was in the drama club, yeah, i was drama geek. i even won the drama award when i graduated, which was amazing, because the only thing i'd ever won before was a care bear. i had so much fun doing the plays, i got to be amanda wingfield in 'the glass menagerie', a dead woman stuck haunting a dive bar in some one act play i have no title recollection of, a distraught single mother of a daughter who wouldn't ditch her imaginary friend in another short play i can't remember the name of (i got to smash things in this one, such a bonus!), and more.

i auditioned to study theater in college but didn't get in. i even had to sing in one of the auditions, the horror. so, i took the improv courses at second city which were a blast! of course the first 2 levels were like a regression back to highschool drama (wink murder anyone?) but the 3 levels after that were more juicy with a performance in the tim sims playhouse at the end of the final level.

i also started doing extra work in film/t.v. which was fun (with bits of boring sprinkled on top...lots of sitting and waiting). i got to meet a lot of great people and eat stale chips from the craft table. i even became a glorified extra when working on the set of the t.v show the rez. they picked me to be the hooched out white trash waitress in the local bar, what made them pick me? i'm not sure, perhaps i had an inner hooch inside that they could see but i couldn't.

somewhere in the midst of all this acting hullabaloo i realized i would much rather be behind the camera, directing, writing, who knows, just creating the stuff that people acted in. if only i had realized that at 17 when we're all supposed to choose what we want to do then go to school for it (yeah right, 17? all i knew at 17 was that i had to get out of barrie).

i should have known, the signs were there from an early age. when kate & i were little we would spend our summers with our grandparents in florida, i would always be directing her and our friends in little movies shot with my grandpa's huge camcorder. then whenever there was a family holiday get together i'd costume up all of my little cousins and we'd put on a play or make a movie to present after dinner. the adults loved this of course as it kept the kids out of their hair.

so anyway, trip down memory lane over. i just adore a really good film.